Sunday 29 June 2014

To Heal My Heart

Today has been a tough day.



Today, my mum died. She has fought valiantly against cancer, staying strong and positive but infection wore her down and she was  released from her battle this afternoon just as the sun broke through the rain clouds that have dominated the week's weather. A group of butterflies took flight from the ground outside her window, and she was free.  

She was an artist, a dancer, a pure kind spirit and constant inspiration to all who knew her, including myself. I know she'll live in my heart every day, just as I lived in hers and I will feel her willpower and love with me always. 

I wanted to share this with you as I've been away from here, caring for her and loving her for some time now. She loved to read this blog while she was able and I wrote most posts with her in mind. I wanted her to know how much I value everything she taught me, and the gifts that I inherited from her. She was my guide through the darkness and my companion in the light and although I feel incomplete without her by my side, I take strength from knowing that all that she was is still with me now and always, in her words and deeds and in her beautiful art. 




She has danced into a glorious colourful meadow of summer flowers, accompanied by the sound of lark song and the love I sent with her. 

Love you mum. Dance and be happy. xxxxxx



15 comments:

  1. Rachel,
    So very sorry for your loss. Your Mom taught you well, and she will be with you always.

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  2. Oh I am so sorry to read this. My sincerest condolences - what a wonderful remembrance. Hugs to you in this difficult time.

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  3. So very sorry to learn of your loss. Your Mum will live on in your heart and in your thoughts, always. Cherish the memories....

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  4. What a lovely tribute to your mother. {HUG}

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  5. A wonderful tribute to your Mum, she must have been a great lady. Hugs, Valerie

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  6. I am so sorry and feel with you since my mother died just a year ago in June 2013 - it was cancer too...
    sending good wishes to you!
    ♥♥♥
    a wonderful tribute to your mother!

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  7. I lost my father to the evil cancer in January 2005. I, too, cared for him, until he joined the angels. It seems like yesterday. I am truly so sorry for your loss. May your sweet memories of her bring you strength and peace.

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  8. A beautiful blog post for a beautiful lady. Big hugs from me you have brought tears to my eyes and reminded me that although today I am cross with my kids I should cherish each and every moment for someone somewhere no longer gets that chance. May your mum dance with the flowers and watch over you from above. Laney xx

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  9. I just found your lovely blog a few weeks ago; and I have been truly inspired by it. I would just like to say how very very sorry I am for the loss of your Mum, my heart goes out to you xx

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  10. Such a beautiful tribute to your mother, just as your life is. Sending you much love.

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  11. Oh Rachael. I'm so sorry to read this. I lost my Mum to cancer too. I feel for you so much at this time and what you've been going through the pair of you. If you need to talk, or rant or talk about your wonderful Mum - I'm only at the end of an email.

    Wish I could give you a real hug right now x x x

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  12. Rachael, I didn't see this until today. It is a very touching and wonderful tribute to your mum. I know how close you were and what a great loss this is. I know she will always be with you. She must have been so proud to have such a talented artist and lovely person for a daughter!

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  13. I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. I'm shore she watches over you always. Much love light and hugs to you <3

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