I have just returned from another fruitless visit to my therapist. I've waited 9 months for these appointments...... NINE FREAKIN' MONTHS!!! NINE!!! And surprise, surprise, I return feeling even MORE of a failure, MORE worthless and totally screwed up. I returned wanting to cut holes in every aspect of my being and shrink into nothingnes........... And then - I log on here and I have wonderful comments from lovely, lovely people and while I'm reading them and replying, the monsters in my mind start to slink back into the shadows, allowing my mind to function and the light to start shining through again.
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
Which prompts this, to each and every AWESOME one of you -
* You are GORGEOUS! Shush now with your arguements, look at you- you're bloody gorgeous! WOW! The world is more fabulous with your fine ass in it!
* You are talented - your skills and colours light the sky with whole new levels of awesome.
* You're funny - laugh like you see the joke even when no one else joins in. You're a perfect spirit in a world of judgemental cynicism. Your smile shines like the sun!
* You're unique - and that's PERFECT! There's enough of everyone else - the world needs a YOU! you add the sprinkles to the cupcake of life.
Sod everyone else who doesn't get you, doesn't laugh at your jokes, doesn't see your bright colours - they're missing out on something magical, but we all know here how EPIC you are - you're a LEGEND in your own time and time to come and THANK YOU for being YOU!
You are light, you are brightness, you are wonder and heart. Be the person that you are and let the world thank you for just showing up and making everything ok. You ALL have my gratitude and my love. Oh - and The Colonel thanks you too 'cos he's had extra nippits (biscuits) for tea!
I am now gonna sit with a glass of red wine, some cinder toffee and a series of '24' and just breathe.
See you soon, lovely - Shroo:)xxx